Do you -- as a person who stutters -- differentiate between disfluency and stuttering? Are they the same?As a person who stutters, I can clearly sense a difference between natural disfluencies and stuttering. Natural disfluencies feel like a mental hesitation that is translated into disfluent speech. I do not know what to say or changed my mind, and I just say "ehhh" or "mmm" or do no continue or extend the syllable I have started. Or sometimes it feels like a glitch in my motor control in the same way as I sometimes make wrong hand or arm movements. It's more like "Funny.. why did I do this? I am clumsy today", and then I just do the correct one with ease.
Stuttered speech feels to me very differently. To start with, I know exactly what I want to say or at least I have the sense that my brain knows what it wants to say without me necessarily consciously knowing what it will be. :-) So I have this "your message is ready and we are ready to go live" feeling, but I can't get it out or I know it is going to be a struggle. It is also associated with other symptoms like tension, loss of control, and also some kind of blockage in the brain. It kind of feels like it involves more than just this local glitch. My whole mental space seems to become restricted to the moment of stuttering. And I know that it is not just a glitch, but will continue with the next sentences. I also feel that I have lost the control of my body posture.
Overtly when only listening to speech samples, it might well not be possible to distinguish clearly between natural disfluencies and stuttered speech, but internally it is most definitely very different. So I think a person who stutters has also natural disfluent speech like a fluent speaker and in addition he or she stutters.
What is your experience? I would like to hear from people who stutter, but also from others who listen a lot to stutterers. Can they detect the difference between natural disfluencies and stuttering?